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Mar. 7th, 2011

warning: zombie apocalypse

Stolen from [personal profile] woldy: There's this meme going around about which five of your own fics you'd save if the rest of the internet was destroyed by the online zombie apocalypse.

Fics I'd save )
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Jul. 31st, 2009

The meme that will never die.

I pitched several ideas to people at Azkatraz (mostly HP), but there's a million things I want to write. Please feel free to share anything you'd like to see me write, continue, try, etc.

The "You Should Write..." Meme!
my thread here
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Oct. 20th, 2008

At long last, a fic accomplishment!

Who knew that the first real novella I've written, and of which I'd actually be proud is Snape/Draco? All 22,000 words of it. :D I've always known I work better in in novella-length or longer. I was writing a long-overdue email to [info]inkandfakefurs about this tonight. I usually think of a word count in terms of hurdles. I'm a procrastinator and I'm lazy, so the fact I want to write longer fics generally doesn't work out well at all. I become frustrated or get distracted by going on a fic-reading spree. This time, for some reason, I stuck with it. That's due in large part to [info]lavillanueva's helpful advice and keeping my characters in line. Who knows? The fic might suck. It's being betaed now, but either way, I really enjoyed it. What's worse? It very well might have a sequel.

I know, I know. 22,000 words is absolutely nothing, but for me it's a bit incredible. ^_^

So, now, that's down (barring editing for spag errors and whatever else the betaing turns up), [info]hp_darkfest is next. I have a prompt but no ideas whatsoever. This one cannot go above 4,000K. Following that, I start my Incredibly Long and Complex [info]hd_holidays fic. Then around the bend is [info]smutty_claus. I've also got to do [info]rospberry's [info]livelongnmarry fic, in which I must delve into Buffy-verse for the first time--writing, at least.

This weekend was fabulous for the writing and relaxing. I hung out with [info]lesyeuxverts00 quite a lot. :D Tonight I had dinner with a bunch of marvelous people. :D It was a fabulous time. Hello to some of the new people on my flist. ♥

I'm reading [info]hp_cross_fest fics tonight and hopefully starting [info]hp_darkfest. Tomorrow I'm temping for the full day. Yay money.

On a squeeful note, here's beautiful H/D art from [info]hd_fanart:

Upon the Wings of Your Design (By Anon, H/D, G)

Oct. 4th, 2008

In which I ramble.

I've been preoccupied the last couple of weeks. I took about a week to have a supreme pity party, then kicked myself in the ass. Went home to NC to see my family, which helped me to put a lot of things into focus. The last week I've concentrated solely on my job search, which is tireless and frustrating, but may actually be going somewhere. I'm working with several job agencies--and I have an appointment with a v. good agency on Tuesday. I had a job interview today, and I really hope to get that job (admin for a non-profit which does LGBTQ healh-related work). There were less applicants than for other positions Ive applied for, so I feel this one is more promising.

I also got my hair cut today, which I couldn't really afford to do, but I did anyway because my hair looked like shit and it was way too long, etc.

Me bitching about the incompetence of people )

Yeah, so I need to write fic. Lots of fic, fic for fests. ARGHHHHHHHHHHH! I love to write at times, and at other times I hate it.

I read the last chapter of [info]mistful's DDG, and let me say, it made me giddy. *swoons*

Tomorrow I'm eating lunch with NQ, writing, applying for more jobs, going to a wine party in Cambridge, and missing everyone who will be in NYC. :(

Sep. 12th, 2008

Today's Updates

1. Job searching is eating my soul. Fortunately, my family gave me more money, so I can actually eat tonight. *gasp*

2. I've read Drop Dead Gorgeous and Quality of Mercy recently and need to figure out how to write feedback. On that note, I still need to properly rec Killing Moon. *facepalm*

3. Writing has felt like torture for weeks, but I have now found a new reason to write and I believe it might actually be fun. Oh, I am full of sadistic glee.

4. Happy Birthday, [info]dementordelta!

Sep. 3rd, 2008

Back in...Blue. A few updates.

I wanted to begin by thanking so many of you for the outpouring of support I received about the situation with my dad. I decided to go to New York to see him. I figured there was a lot more to lose if I didn't go. The situation--the one, you know, that my relatives were negligent in telling me--was that he had had a heart attack and had an open heart surgery. He was out cold when I went to visit. I stayed for around two hours and sat there, writing a letter while I watched him sleep. I wonder how my letter will be received. I wonder if I'll know if he even bothered to read it or not. I met his wife for the first time, which was interesting to say the least. But, I did my part, stayed two hours and left my letter. I came back to Boston the next day, feeling satisfied I'd done all I could. My dad's surgery went well, and they think he'll make a full recovery. The family members I did see while there were not not very receptive--doing everything from cursing at me to ignoring me--so I ignored them and stayed at a hotel that night, declining the invitation to stay at my aunt's house.

I went to a job interview today--the one at GLAD. One of the guys was a complete asshole, but I think I did all right. They kept fishing for answers and seemed to be frustrated that I wasn't an idiot. There's another round of interviews next week, and so we'll see if I'm called back for that. I'm still looking for other options

I'm filling out my sign-up for [info]smutty_claus and I realized I haven't read het in so long I don't know what pairings I like. I've settled on Snape/Lily so far. :P I'll go see what the other participants have requested for inspiration! *giggles at [info]snegurochka_lee's length--er, lengthy sign-up*

I need to be writing my very late contribution to a fest that I'm not sure if they'll accept at this point. *sigh*

By the way, if any of you want to be on my political rants or music filters, go here! I feel a political rant coming on...

*waves to the new friends on my flist*

Jun. 26th, 2008

Live Long and Marry...or don't marry...but at least have the right if you so choose.

My night )


I'm offering fic for [info]livelongnmarry.

Some of you already know all about this. For those asking "WTF is this?", here:


What is this?
Live Long And Marry is a fandom auction to benefit marriage equality. Bidding begins on July 1, 12:01 Pacific Time, 2008, and closes on July 15, 12:01 Pacific Time, 2008. Please do not bid until bidding opens.

What's the cause?
The auction will raise money for the fight against the California initiative which will legally destroy existing same-sex marriages and ban any further ones. If the initiative passes, it will write discrimination into the state constitution, annull existing marriages, and make Mr. Sulu cry.

How can I help?
You can bid on fanfic, original fic, vids, cookies, memorabilia, critique/betas, and much more! Or you can offer your skills and services as a writer, vidder, baker, knitter, or whatever else you'd like.

Read more in the userinfo.

I am contributing fanfic and here's my post in case anyone's interested:

Offer: I will write no less than 5,000 words of fanfic. I primarily write in the Harry Potter fandom, but I also can write in the Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Twilight, and Queer as Folk fandoms. I primarily toy with writing m/m slash these days, but I can and do write het, femmeslash, or gender-queered pairings/interactions -- or gen! I will write any pairing from any of these fandoms. I'm not that shy about writing kinks, so if you have something particularly kink-worthy in mind, I'm probably open to it. If you want to ask me first, feel free.

Contact: bewarethesmirk [at] gmail [dot] com

Delivery: I'll have your story written, polished, and finished by November 1.

Minimum bid: $20

Buy it now: $80

Please consider participating. There are tons of wonderful HP writers offering their services, and a lot of people writing in other fandoms and/or offering miscellaneous things.

Jun. 6th, 2008

Good morning!

♥ Thanks to everyone who offered birthday wishes for me! *smooches* There are too many to name. :)

I'd like to point out two adorable ficlets written for me:
Hit the Beach by [info]enchanted_jae (Harry/Draco; PG)
The prompt I gave was: Draco's first time at a Muggle beach.

Mirror, Mirror, on the Wall by [info]softly_sweetly (Harry/Draco; NC-17)
The prompt I gave was: obscene magical mirror

If you wished me happy birthday and I haven't responded, I must not have seen it. Please point me in the right direction. *haz greed*

On my birthday, I ate Indian with the roomies, and then [info]friarlawrence and I went to the mall and saw Narnia 2. I got $100 from my Mom and a $100 from my grandpa. Can't complain about the money. But the best birthday present I received was Obama clinching the Democratic nomination. *icon*

♥ I've been sleeping waaaaaay too much lately. I mean, really. I need to stop.

♥ I'm going to pack up my stuff, run a few errands, and then go to my grandparents' for the day/night. It'll be nice to have a functioning TV again, with cable, so I can get a politics fix.

♥ I've two H/D novels I'm working on now--and when I was in the shower I got an idea for a Snarry. Argh!

♥ It's going to be 100 again today. *cringes* I did have a productive talk with one of my roommates about the A/C.

ETA! I forgot to mention I have a job interview Monday! *cross fingerz and toez and other appendagez*
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May. 19th, 2008

Ice cream attack.

Right now, I really wish I had a digital camera -- because if I did I'd take a picture of the Ben & Jerry's ice cream carton on my desk (still mostly full). (I say this because so many people are doing the "Day in the Life of xxx" meme.) I started my period today and I'm having horrible cramps, and chocolate/sugar cravings. So after I went to eat Mexican food with MB tonight and we watched TV, I went to Harris Teeter (supermarket), at 2:00am, and bought ice cream. It's Half Baked (which, for those who don't know, is chocolate and vanilla ice cream mixed with brownies and chocolate chip cookie dough). There goes the diet for tonight. *blushes*

The only groceries I have in my apt.--since I just moved in--are soy milk, cereal, bread, peanut butter and jelly. Oh, and Diet Pepsi. Hah.

I need to write tonight, but I feel shitty with the cramps. :( I'm going to try to write at least some. I'm gonna work on my very late [info]hds_beltane fic. *nods*
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Mar. 21st, 2008

Striking we will go.

Yeah, so I'm striking. I hope IJ will cooperate tonight/tomorrow. I tried posting [info]snapenews here tonight and IJ was taking forever and ever. I was finally able to post it awhile ago. *hides from [info]bethbethbeth and [info]chiralove*

Hmm, so I wonder how much LJ Strike and SUP wank meta we're going to have today. *g* I've been skimmed some of it, bypassing other posts. I should probably catch up. Admittedly, some of the hostility among people has surprised me. Disagreements, cool, but there has been wanky hostility directed towards each other that surprises me. Wank toward LJ/SUP not surprising, lol. I'm sure that much is obvious to most of us by now. *sheepish grin*

I have to get started on my [info]hds_beltane fic. [info]chiralove helped me--fuck, gave me--a great plot idea. I've got to decide if I'm doing strictly H/D or some sort of Harry/Draco/Snape triangle. Not a threesome, no. Anyone want to beta when I have it done? I'm hoping to write something moderately long and plotty.

...And you know? I was just looking at my userpics. I have...what? *counts* Ten. That needs to be rectified, considering the number of icons saved on my hard drive.

Jan. 2nd, 2008

Better late than never.

Okay, okay, so I'm a bit late. Nonetheless, I wanted to wish everyone a very Happy New Year! I'm not even going to pretend that I can make and keep resolutions. I'm barely functional on a daily basis, so to pretend to make all these additional goals would just be ridiculous. But, I was just talking to [info]chiralove, and one resolution I'd like to make, and keep, is to write a novel-length HP fic. The longest fic I've ever written was around 10,000 words, and even that was more of a just-for-the-sex fic. I do better with more space. I like details and time to build characters and relationships. I thought forever that I'd be writing a Snarry fic, but now I think I'm going to be writing an H/D fic due to recent inspiration. :D Okay, and another resolution: be better about feedback. I know the [info]merry_smutmas feedback levels have been down this year, and it's really just sad. I don't know if it's a product of less people going to InsaneJournal, less people reading, or what, but it really does depress me -- so I'm going to make sure I do my fair share.

Tomorrow (er, technically today), I'm going to attempt to find a lawyer to take care of the ticket I have. Yuck. Shouldn't be a very fun process. I'll be glad when it's over. I really just want to write a check and be done with it.

Oct. 24th, 2007

List of grievances

*I'm so sleep deprived it's depressing. I've slept some combined 8-10 hours this week from Sun-Wed. (This is because of classwork.)

*I have a presentation at 3:30 today I'm incredibly nervous about, but I am so eager to be done with.

*I have erratic emotions that are preventing me from sleeping. Could also be the stress and the not eating enough.

*I have no money, and so I'm barely eating. I get paid on Friday, and that money will go to a credit card company.

*I am leaving work in a few minutes - an hour early - to return to my dorm so I can take a nap.

*I'm writing a fic tonight that should be turned in by tomorrow, but probably won't be because it needs so much work.

*I have to do [info]snapenews too.

*I also have to go to a Feminist Students United meeting, where I'll probably be expected to stay for a movie.

*It's raining here for the first time in ever. We need it because of our huge drought.

*Much love to everyone in SoCal. :-(

*I hate sexist programming and homophobia/heterosexism.

/end ranty list
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Oct. 12th, 2007


If you're running late on writing for an exchange, and it's not feasible to write something you originally set out to do -- is it better to write a short piece that you feel more confident with, or email the exchange for an extension? I feel bad either way....

Sep. 20th, 2007

Wanted: A Beta that Goes Beyond SPAG

This is partially a discussion of my writing and partially a plea for help.

From time to time I make posts about writing, which usually include me waxing pessimistic about some aspect of the writing process. Obviously, I enjoy writing a great deal. I enjoy language and the power within, so it's no wonder I look at writing as a code that should create the perfect combination of words to depict scenes and emotions and characters.

The thing is I feel stuck with writing. Writing doesn't feel as enjoyable as it should. If I were confident in my writing, I could just write without sitting down to overcome this week's hurdle. Writing for me has become more about the process and less about the story I'm telling, and that's something I want to rectify.

I really want to become comfortable in my own shoes, with my own voice. I think that's the only way for me to stop being so paranoid about the process. So, what I need is someone who is willing to read things for me and give me a reflection. I have difficulty with knowing how my words come across to others. I write well enough to know most of the things I write make sense, but I'm not sure if there is any enjoyment to be found. I'm not sure if what I'm attempting to write is being lost between mind and computer screen.

I crave someone to help me that will offer honest criticism - on semantics, on language, on how the text sounds. An editor is nice, but it's not the most important thing I need.

If anyone is reading this and you have experience with betaing, and you're willing to help me, I would be forever grateful. I'm adept - or so I hope - at the betaing process myself, so I don't mind performing favors in turn (winkwinksmirksmirk). If you've read this far, good chances are you already know the type of thing I write -- various pairings of slash and het, with a top-heavy emphasis on the slash. I'm very Snape-oriented.

If anyone wants to discuss the possibility of aiding me in this epic journey, I can be reached at bewarethesmirk at gmail dot com.

If you want to discuss any of this, comment away!